My chest is hurting, my heart is breaking through.
I have so much to say, but I just can't say it to you. You can hear it in my voice,
read it on my face.
I'm drowning in the memories,
of the past I can't replace
She wasn't bitter, she was sad though,
but it was the hopeful kind of sad,
the kind of sad that just takes time
breathe in, breathe out; until the feeling's gone. but the nights keep getting colder. & the days all feel the same. oh I swear this town gets smaller everyday. & I'm waiting for my chance. I'm going to break away. I'm so sick and tired of being told what's good for me. people seem to have a lot of ideas of who I'm supposed to be. And if I had to sum up this past year...
I wasted months of it trying to impress you.
I wasted hours of days just talking to you on the phone.
And what did it get me?
A broken heart, a very quiet cell phone,
Piles of clothes I'll never wear again,
And drawers full of many types of make up.
It wasn't worth it.
You weren't worth my time. You can't navigate me.
I might do mean things and I might hurt you
And I might run away without your permission
And you might hate me forever,
And I know that scares the shit out of you,
Because I'm the only real thing that you have. I understood that he didn't want me around anymore. But it made life seem black and white, flat and one dimensional. I craved the oxygen and color he brought. He had changed life, and now it just couldn't change back. so shut your mouth & hold me close. cause we both know it is better than being alone. you can't let fear stop you. you have
to let it move you and move beyond it.
sometimes the most natural things, the
things that don't seem risky, are the most
supernatural; they sneak up on you. if
you keep your eyes open, someday you
may see something that surprises you. i used to believe in forever,but
forever was too good to be true.
++winnie the pooh But if I wanted silence, then I would whisper. If I wanted loneliness,
then I'd choose to go. If I liked rejection, then I'd audition,
and if I didn't love you, you would know. you came to me like a dream, the kind that always leaves.
just as the best part starts, it ends so abruptly. and leaves you stunned and naked in your bedroom all alone. it's kinda funny how something so soothing gets interrupted by the ring of a telephone. one thing that I've never said, i'm truly happy in my heart and in my head. a lonely liver suspended in liquid. its one thing that i never did was smile.
missing a case, lacking a lid. here we are again with handguns for hearts. they had a master plan, wanted to tear us apart. nothing to hold, all hope deleted. our demise has been completed now. nowhere left to go but down. the flames of hell they give me hope, i drown in oceans of this tragic part of town where nothing's heard for miles but the sound of children wishing they were safely underground. and the freeway held such beautiful chances
for singing over the radio and teenage romances,
holding hands with hearts beating faster,
and singing like tonight would never end. liars don't get second chances,
and secrets don't make friends.
so open up, spill your guts;
make sure you make an honest mess
i just smile and pretend you're not
everything i could love forever. you were a song in my head
the warmth of the sheets in my bed
a story forever told, but never old
a warm arrival never left so cold
don't blink, don't close your eyes
but most of all don't apologize
it's me who's got the demons to wrestle now i still love the way your eyes look in mine
and it's too bad we can't feel this way all the time.
cause the breath between our lips when we kiss
is something i hope i never have to miss. you know you've hit rock bottom
when you're mumbling the words to all his favorite songs
till the neighbors can hear your drunken slurs.
you know the end is creeping up
when all you can feel is the faint remnants of touching him,
and wishing they were real. melon, orange, and red leaves up to my knees
as we lay dead still in the back yard
and your hair falls onto me,
i raise my hand up to your cheeks
and i can feel my heart skip a beat.
and we're so young, yeah we're so young and foolish. the blood collects and flushes out your cheek bones.
i've got this secret garden and you're the only one who knows.
i'm stuttering and drooling; my shredded throat will try to sing for you.
what do you say? cause it's a lie, it's a crime, it's just something i can't deny
but you know it looks so good from the outside.
it's a mistake that i'm willing to make,
a promise i just might break.
gotta find out how much my heart can take. i can see you on the horizon like a storm that's soon to be.
and is it so bad to be in love with a memory? while you were sleeping, i figured out everything.
i was constructed for you, and you were molded for me.
now i feel your name coursing through my veins,
you shine so bright it's insane; you put the sun to shame. She's the self-preserved, pretty-but-doesn't-know-it kind of girl, reading her books & day dreaming all day while he's the outgoing, spontaneous, good-looking boy with the most amazing eyes you'll ever see. They grew up from two different worlds & he'll teach her how to stand up to those who look down to her & she'll teach him how to love & know the true meaning of jealousy, while he teaches her the same without knowing it. He'll teach her how to shout at the world without a wince because his hand is holding tightly around hers, letting her know he will never leave her, causing her to forget her fears for everything & just being able to live for once without any worries. I don't understand how you can be so heartless
considering you have mine. Three months and I'm still sober.
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers.
But I know it's never really over. I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess; just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way Here's to the moments in which
we didn't think about right from wrong.
Moments in which we just lived,
crossed our fingers and hoped for the best. Well, she's fashionably lean, & fashionably late.
She'll never rank a scene, she'll never break a date;
but she's no drag, just watch the way she walks. I’m having another episode I just need a stronger dose -FOB I keep telling myself I’m not the desperate type -FOB broken down on memory lane alone, together we’re alone -FOB a penny for your thoughts but a dollar for your insides -FOB tonight the headphones will deliver the words that I can’t say -FOB my smile’s an open wound without you -FOB They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
But for what we've become, we just feel more alone
Always weigh what I've lost against what I left
So progress report: I am missing you to death -fob you are way too young
to not believe it is going to be okay. You walk like a zombie.
You talk like a zombie.
It's not in your head;
you're the living dead. And I will stand over the grave in which you lay
And apologize for not keeping you safe. Here we lay again, on two seperate beds.
Riding phone lines to hear that familiar voice. Lets try this one more time, With feeling I wasn't expecting you, but sometimes people take you by surprise.
-Boy Meets World i hope i've made a difference in your life.
significant enough to cross your mind at night. If you truly missed me, you'd call everyday
just so you wouldn't forget my voice. being without you takes a lot of getting used to.
i should learn to live with it, but i don't want to. look down at your chest and a little to the left. that's where i'll always be I hope you watch as I’m falling down
because you are the reason I’m hitting the ground What am I doing here, if you’re not with me?
What have I got to live for, if it’s just my own dream?
Take it back to the beginning, back to the start.
When gravity’s pulling, you’re still holding my heart.
You come crashing down. when i go through town,
that corner, that rode, the building where we kissed.
brings those memories back. yeah i do miss you,
but i miss making those memories more. </3 | 
